Thursday, January 17, 2013

The Baffled

 Once upon a day in an open global chat, anonymous-X got a private chat invitation and she accepted she thought it was her friend but is it one of her friends or will anonymous-X be a new life changing character in her life?


Chat#1

#Global Chat:
 
*Teenager
*Is it that different ?
-Nope.

Anonymous-Y is inviting you to a private chat ACCEPT - IGNORE
Private Chat Invitation Accepted 
#Private Chat: 
 
*Then why is so hard ? It is getting really tiring !
-Aha....
*Aha ?! is that all what you can say!
-Yup, That's all, I'm just like you expressionless, cant find no words to express what i,m going through: 
I feel I need I cry I smile I learn I get hurt I shiver I like  I love I get heart broken I stop I start I find no one that I really like .. I got Bored !
* Woww!! 
-Yupp
* Can I ask a question ? :$
-Yah sure, go ahead
* Who are you?
-ummm....
*umm...??
-I myself don't know who I am, Sent to the world to seek myself
*Yourself?
-Yupp , We're all have been placed on earth with names and families and close people, but in the same time no one knows why they're here? everyone is here for a reason, and I'm simply seeking for it !!
*okay...! :s
-Would it matter if you're speaking to a friend or a stranger after all its all equal at least I don't know you personally and this is a +ve thing bcuz it means that I wont stab you in the back like most friends do to each other
*and who told you my friends would stab me in the back? I trust my friends i would turn my back to them without any doubts!!
-Okay then, maybe in the future you'll learn to protect your back from your own self
*Okay watever, so wats ur name?
-lets just stay anonymous-X,Y to each other, and not introduce ourselves, this way we can talk more comfortably with each other knowing that we don't know each other, you knww... to save the embarrassment.
*Alright.
- IT was nice chatting with you
*always a pleasure.
- maybe we can do it again some time?
*Sure why not. 
-Bye for now, TC ;)
*Goodbye :).

*Anonymous-X Signed OUT
 -Anonymous-Y signed OUT 

Shots of thoughts and guilt

When hard times pass in  our lives we feel swallowed by the dark and thrown into the center of hell.
I'm not talking about those little silly things many people think that its disastrous, No!, I'm talking about those hard obstacles that slaps you right in the face without any warning, about those hard obstacles that you face in life , the kind of when they first hit you in the face you don't believe that it is actually happening, until someday you stop and think how did i never saw this coming? am i that blind, am i chasing after life and all its pleasures and paying less attention to the important things!! 
WHERE WAS I BEFORE EVERYTHING HAS HAPPENED, WAS I BLIND !?!
That's when I realized that the devil caught  me from the neck while tricking me by telling me which way to go and made me choose the way  it wants 
the direction i think I'm going to is paradise while the direction he's  taking me leads straight to HELL!
Now I'm wide awake but still walking in that direction, I've been walking through a very long time that i cant go back now its too late or isn't  it?
they say God's doors are always open  but would he accept me after all this? 
today i did a very nasty thing to do i let my bad side role over me and i hurt a dear person knowing that they're going to be hurt!! is it a bad thing ? 
i really felt guilty about it!
would the feeling of guilt take away what i did?
i didn't think so too !!